Lord, grant me...

peace.

beyond my understanding.

because no words hold an answer to the questions I am asking.

Lord, grant serenity.

in the midst of all my

shortcomings.

Grant me wisdom in my flawed attemt to grasp reality outside this world's scientific explanation for science
and space
and gravity...

Grant me faith to beat the odds and fly

and if not, the trust to try.

For I am damned if I cannot die to my own self, stuck stranded in a panic of my soul's hell.

Break me and teach me, for this world has beat, mocked and forsaken me.
Meanwhile, I've been fake, hollow and dangerously open to shallow scemes - twisted up and topsy turvey'ed in dreams that cannot practice what they preach.

because empty words have empty meanings.

and empty hearts
are
full
of yearning.

Oh God, grant me widespread arms, and open hands-
a mouth that sings and legs that stand

upon the rock of its salvation.

the only hope I have -

my one and holy reconciliation.

God grant the strength to fight the demons, in my mind. They seek to ruin my ambitions, dry the grass and gray my sky. but Lord of hosts, You were, are and will be through and through. So by Your blood stained victory, may I boast in YOU?

They say I am nothing.
but a sinning, gutless whore.
worthess and deceiving to all who think I'm more.
They say I'm nothing.
but a failed attempt at life.
ugly, broke and desperate
to be someone I could like...
or
some girl that boys...might.

Oh Lord, grant me strength to fight

for I am beloved of a King who won my heart.

Take it, now, tomorrow, and all of the days to come.
Take me pretty, take me ugly. Take me empty, take me full, but take me wholly yours so I can truely
learn
to
love.


Lord, grant me peace.